I don’t take it back

We were just what I needed when I needed it.

That time for us has passed.

Unlike my endings of the past I am comfortable with the me that existed in our present.  I’m proud of myself.  Proud of my growth, my maturity, & my willingness to be.  As I continue to grow into myself I will continue to discover demons born of my damage.  Hopefully I’ll walk hand in hand with the troublemakers instead of shooing them off to the side and wishing for their disappearance.

My person, — often referred to by others as “the one” but I choose to remove that burden and just refer to them as “the maniac who will put up with me”– will be patient.  They will meet my feelings with patience and grace, forgiveness and mercy.  They will show me through their actions, deeds, and words what it means to human.  They will ask for my forgiveness when they are wrong and offer me forgiveness when I present my mistakes. They will see them as that, mistakes. Nothing more, nothing less.

What I take from this are many things which will make my future richer.  I must continue to laugh.  My life is full of laughter.  I’d forgotten how with you — to no fault of your own but I had indeed forgotten how to laugh at myself.  That is material on which I’d like to ponder.

“Why is it so easy to forget myself?”

You helped me in so many ways. Far too many to recount in this post.  They will, instead, sprinkle posts of the future.

With all of me I wish you the best, truly.  From my heart to yours, thank you.  I am better having known you.

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