I’m at a different place right now. Although the same is true literally, that is not the context in which I speak.
We, he and I, had a conversation last night that scared me. Thinking about it now makes me nervous and fear-filled trembles take refuge in my body. He screamed at me. He was upset at something I said and he screamed until his voice cracked.
Last night, as I lay my head down on my pillow, the last thoughts were those of him — us. I woke 4 hours after the original positioning to find myself full of fear. Riddled with terror I looked back to times when he would hit things, and slam his head against walls. I awoke very frightened. So frightened I wanted to cry.
He shouldn’t treat me this way. I won’t let him talk to me like that anymore. It’s not fair and it’s not nice.